After yesterday’s “good” day where I was able to eat and keep on top of things, today I woke with the feeling of knowing that I was going to start vomiting almost immediately.
I thought that if I started eating slowly, get some fruit (which I’ve been missing but it’s a no go) and some crackers that maybe, I could get some food in to stop it from happening.
I knew I was fooling myself but mind over matter ect… The vomiting started and I had to go back to bed and miss a day out with my husband and thunderpants because it wouldn’t be fair on them nor would it be fair on me.
I know it’s going to pass but when you’re in the midst of it and fear that it will turn into full blown Hyperemesis , it’s just hard not to start feeling so much
despair. As I said in my previous post, it’s very debilitating and difficult to bond with the little life growing inside you. Nothing can take away the feelings of nausea, some medication can help but it needs to take its course.
Smells make it worse for me and unless I sleep until it passes or sit outside for the next few months, I just need to learn to manage it I suppose. But how do you manage something that makes you vomit and feel so down?
I see advertisements for food, my stomach rumbles, I try to force myself to eat but it just ends up coming right back up again. I can’t really see my friends, missing out on seeing my daughter and husband, just sitting wishing it would pass.