It’s 03:55 on a Saturday morning and for the love of god, I can’t get to sleep. It could be the snoring toddler next to me, the amount of Pepsi in my blood stream because as of today, I can drink it again or it might be the waft of the dogs farts coming through from the living room, harmful and toxic resulting in my stomach churning.
I didn’t have a particularly great day, it’s hard looking after thunderpants when so ill, feeling like a failure when she asks to play and having to say “no”. I actually fell asleep for 20mins while she played ! I was drowsy due to taking her up to out of hrs during the small hrs of the
Morning as she seems to have a urine infection. However, I’m inclined to think that some of it is behaviour related too which may or may not be linked to my hospital stay.
So here I am, awake and knowing that if I don’t get any sleep, that tomorrow will be difficult as HG is worse when tired. I’ve tried everything but thirst and a rumbling tummy take over. Drinking so much also makes many more trips to the loo and rumbling tummy isn’t wanting me to eat despite feeling incredibly hungry.
I think I probably broke down around 4 times today, once in front of thunderpants who then started crying… Increasing my guilt but I pulled it back and turned it in to a game. I told her that she needed to talk to the baby and tell him:her to stop making mummy so sick otherwise she would tell him/her off when born. I think she felt bad about that as she rubbed my belly and gave it a kiss soon after.
On the last trip to the bathroom, I decided to weigh myself, seemingly I have lost approx 8lbs in 3 weeks. Normally I would have been delighted but in pregnancy, its totally different and shouldn’t happen. I also noticed something else but won’t enlighten you all as its just a bit too much to share and will leave that one up to the midwives!
Again, I may have mentioned this before but I have been doing a lot of thinking since being confined to my bed, some changes need to be made after the baby has been born but positive changes, a push in the right direction. Will say more about that soon.
I also thought about a wee couple of posts about “what I wore when pregnant” when feeling better and also an attempt to boost my mood a bit. Something for me, not to fall into the sweat pants and jumpers lifestyle which is easy to do!no offence to those who do, I’m just speaking about myself..I want to try a bit harder for me.
Anyway, I have another scan and a few doc appointments this week and will be 10weeks now, so hopefully it’s onwards and upwards as HG is worse between 8-10wks so I’m over that and trying to think positively…. Honest