August is looming, like a dark cloud forming in preparation for a storm.. I shouldn’t be feeling this way but I am also pleased to have these “normal” feelings that all parents experience. The feelings that I speak about are of course, in relation to school starting.
Thunderpants is ready for it, I know its the natural progression in her life and one that she will find exciting and scary but I am not ready for it and am desperately trying so very hard to shield her from my own feelings so that she doesn’t get any of my anxiety which I’m sure I have already passed over to her in the past about other things in life. It is a personal achievement to be feeling like this because of the journey that I have gone through since her birth almost 5 years ago and just how far we have came in our own relationship.
We were in Asda yesterday and she was eager to start her school clothes shopping a little bit too early due to the rate that she is growing at these days. She already know what she wants, right down to the hair accessories and socks/tights and shoes. Where did the time go?! We were in the loft putting away some things and she had started pulling out old clothes and her memory box that I started for her a few years ago that I keep adding to from time to time, and it brought me back. I have a lot of people telling me not to be so silly as its a natural progression blah blah blah… not everyone went through what we did and the word natural was not in our vocabulary.
I know that she will be fine and that it will be a good thing for us both as like most children, she is bored with some of the stuff that we do which is understandable as her wee mind is growing just as fast as her physical body is. It was only last week that one of my oldest friends told me that her 9 year old daughter just got her period! They grow up so quickly and it does make you ponder life and the silly things we get anxious about…regret…or just give too much time to.
I shall be the mother who will be crying on the morning of school but not in front of her and shall be proud to watch her go through the school gates..really….